arhh, fuck my life!!!! I'm actually still think of you tis few months... Wat's is wrong wit me seriously, why cant i just stop thinking of you( VANESSA LIM PEI YAN )!!!! Once you make slipped deeply into your heart but after so many months, i'm still in remain in the very bottom of you.... Wat i have been thinking was all about the fucking everything of YOU, only you... seriously, alot of people is talking bad things about you, but i will still be on your side no matter wat shit!! if the time can really be reversed, i will still wan to be by your side, holding your little warm hands and hugging you tightly not letting you running away from me... alot of people kept asking me if i had forgotten you, i would just say" alright de la, will forget you somehow", but am i right? right about still making me think tat i will forget you or just let everybody noe that i still love you and continue to love and care about you without keeping things to myself.. If you ask me to choose between you or my gangs of friends, i will choose you without thinking, to me, friends can be made everytime and anytime but not love.. love to me is like the most important thing you ever give me.. FUCK MYSELF, i will really wan to say "dear i love you" again to you face to face but i think tis day would never come and appear infront of me!! LOVE FOR YOU FROM ME WOULD NEVER END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear, actually i still care about euu alot.. tis few days, i have stopp msging, tis makes me so pain euu noe...!!!! I just cant stop thinking of euu:'( I love euu i LOVE EUU!!!!! I didnt noe that forgetting euu is so pain,so pain...But i still love euu as before.. i love euu<3

OMg!!! friday's history exam is disgusting, so difficult!!! Haix, I miss euu tis few days!! I really cannot afford to lose euu, but i am trying to control my temper:) This few days, euu are so happy!! much more happier:) I think i should be happy for euu!!! Athough i feel so weird without euu, but im really happy for euu... I will keep trying my best to gain your best:) It's exam period, euu must rest more okay?? dont tired yourself!!! and dont stress yourself!! I hope euu can get to the class euu wan next year:) I will love euu from the deep of my heart<3!!

Today, so many ppl told me to forget euu, they said that euu are just playing me from the start.. But why am i not angry and not care about wat euu done to me at all??? Euu were like one which can only control my feelings!!! Everybody gave me advice to forget euu but notink works at all.. After breaking wit euu, i have tis addiction that starts to pester me which is smoking... Euu gave me the encouragement to quit smoking, quit everything that is wrong, be someone that is useful, be someone that is matchable to euu.. And because of your encouragement, i made myself to become another person... I really wish to pick up that cigarette and start smoking but i just cannot do it, i tink euu are the only reason that make me have that thinking to not smoke.. I am really sure that i have not smoke for more than two months.. I still remember once which i was caught by the HSA, euu were angry wit me, and so i vow that i would not touch the cigarette again.. Other den tis, i can really feel that i have changed alot alot.. tis makes me proud of myself:) Euu have no feelings for me anymore, but should i really stop msging euu and thinking of euu, i have idea!!! Every second, i will keep tinking of euu, caring for euu in my heart||| I'm really very lost:(

Yes finally!!! The only way to forget euu just awhile is only stressing my body out... But it can only just last for awhile..:( Is it true that tiring yourself is a way of escaping yourself??? Anybody can give me some advice??? I am sure that i had really sank into your heart so deep, deep that i had drown into the bottom of your heart... I swear that i wont let euu get hurt and will help euu secretly when euu have difficulties.. If anybody tries to hurt euu, i will really make that person regret!! If euu have any problems, i will 100% give euu my support, and will give euu my moral support!!! Bu it i sure that i wont give up on euu so easily.. I hope that euu would really consider if euu would accept me one more time, i had already found out the person euu like.. And i really don noe wat i will do to him, but i will try to control myself:( Seeing myself in tis stage is something that i will not regret doing after the breakup in my whole!! The only thing that i could say is "i love euu" DEEP IN MY HEART!!<3 I ever tink that someday if euu really would get hurt by someone but I am sure that i would not hesitate and let me be the one that get hurt... Even sacrificing myself:'(

:( Dear i noe euu like someone already!! Im really really really dem sad!! CAn euu not leave me?? I really need euu alot, euu are the one that make my life change... I really feel like asking euu for a patch but i don have the courage to express my feelings to euu:'( Please dont leave me alone!!! I love euu to the max.. If i had not give a bad impression for euu, things would not have happen till tis stage!! I really hope euu can give me tis chance but i dont really expect too much from euu.. Being tis stage is all my fault, i cause everything for myself,EVERYTHING!!! I regretted alot.. Euu were like much more happier den the times euu are wit me, must i really give up on euu?? I really wan euu to be happy but i also really wan to be wit euu.. MAybe i should just keep my love secretly and act normal?? I don noe:( But i doubt so!! i love euu<3

DEar i noe euu are avoiding me, finding me irritating rite?? I'm sorry:( Tis few days i have been on my own, i'm really a loner!! Euu are once the most important person in the world and euu are still now.. Euu can think that i am lying but its true... Tis represent my love for euu, every roses represent my every promise to euu.. I am very sure that i didnt break any promise.. I will always remember the days we had, euu are always mine!! ALWAYS in my heart:) My love for euu will always exist like the hearts i made for euu in tis universe forever!! I LOVE EUU<3